I wrote this post on Monday afternoon. The verse had been on my heart for a few days as I was preparing to have surgery Tuesday morning. It was my second surgery in three and a half years and was supposed to clear up all of the endometriosis in my body. We had no inclination that it wouldn't be enough. God had other plans, and it was worse than we (or the doctor) realized. So we are now re-grouping. I'm trying to rest and recover and also grapple with the news that I still have some heavy treatment left before our infertility journey is over. It's been a rough few days. I find it ironic that I wrote this post about this particular verse with no idea what was about to unfold a mere twenty four hours later. But God did. God was not surprised by the diagnosis. He is still on his throne and he is still our sustainer and helper in this storm. We are thankful for so many people who have cared for us and pointed us to the One who heals the sick, restores the brokenhearted, and gives barren women a home. We trust in him alone.
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"Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God." -Psalm 20:7
What do you trust in? We don't use chariots for transportation anymore. We don't ride horses and depend on them for our livelihood. In fact, most of us don't even own livestock. But this psalm still stands true in our lives.
Do you trust in your job? Friends? Family? Spouse? Doctors? Money? There are a whole host of things we are drawn to trust in when life presses in around us. David was no different. He is calling the reader to trust only in the God who gives us life and every good gift.
In verse 4 he says:
"May he grant you your heart’s desire and fulfill all your plans!"
He is the one who does it. As followers of Christ we no longer have to trust in things that pass away, like money, doctors, health, people, or our stuff. It will all fail us in the end. We trust in God, the maker of heaven and earth, and the keeper of our life.
I'm sorry to hear that it wasn't good news. I am glad that you and Daniel love Jesus so much and trust our Lord completely. I know how difficult that can be when things don't seem to go our way. This infertility road is so frustrating at times and I am continually puzzled as to why God opens some wombs and closes others. I am grateful for you, Courtney, and am praying for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Chelsea. I pray for you regularly too. It is so encouraging that there are people, even through the internet, who pray for us. I'm grateful for your friendship.
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